1. |
Lines of Prematurity
02:52
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There's an ocean in my body
Flooding my heart
The sound of the shatter
Of pieces and parts
There's an ocean in my body
That's flooding my heart
The pages keep turning
But the stories all stopped
I can see in your eyes
I should see myself home
I'm dancing in circles
On the edge of a knife
In the arms of the devil
The time of my life
Your body in the darkness
Its ridges and lines
The breath leaves my body
I lose track of time
I can see that you're trying to let me know
I can see in your eyes I should see myself home
There's unfamiliar people
And the strangest of things
You mash all my buttons
And you pull all my strings
Like a puppet at a sideshow
I'm dancing around
The courage you gave me
Has never been found
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me
Writing lines of prematurity
There’s an ocean in my body
An ocean in my body
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2. |
Speak Out
03:56
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I'm happy with the life in living
I'm thankful for the things I'm given
But I just can't help feeling
Underwhelmed
The people they can't help saying
That everything is overrated
So I just keep on staying
By myself
You want me out but I can't go
I'm scared of things that I don't know
Like all the lies of growing old
Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door
Never understanding my thoughts
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want
Anymore
I bend until I'm breaking
I'm tired of always thinking
I don't have much remaining
Anymore
I'm quick to make decisions
Impulsive with precision
I find that solid vision
Is a chore
My friends they say they like me
I SWEAR TO GOD IM TRYING
To find just what I'm looking for
Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door
Never understanding my thoughts
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want
Anymore
Can't keep my hands from shaking
You had me for the taking
But you insist on making
It the worst
I try hard to be charming
Or at least a bit disarming
I beg for you to call me
Til it hurts.
Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door
Never understanding my thoughts
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want
Anymore
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3. |
Stop Short
03:50
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There’s a habit of my mind
to try and get the best of me
All the visions of my eyes
They never reveal anything
If you come for my heart
it mind end up being depressing
I come over in the night
To try and get you to get me
And all you see is somebody clever
Suddenly I become a stranger
I believe that I can be what you want
Ask me and I can make the time stop short
And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together
There’s a way my body and yours
The room spins and everything shudders
I find the less I explore
The more I discover
There’s a song in your breath and you sing
In a beautiful whisper
And it gets in my head and the words
They tell me to kiss her
And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together
All you see is somebody clever
Suddenly I become a stranger
Take all of my insecurities
Until we get to the point where
I believe that I can be what you want
Ask me and I can make the time stop short
And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together
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4. |
Fire&Stone
04:02
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I blinked out the dust from my eyes as I rose from the earth
Carved out of stone, defined by my heart and my worth
The moment I woke l found cast-offs and silhouettes formed from cutaway lines of you
Stumble and stretch towards the shadows of flickering blue
Stirring the embers of what it was like to begin
Covered in flames, the thought of you burning my skin
Powdered my bones, breathe it in, sleeplessly waiting for everything to be right again,
Seeing your face in smoke that swallows me in
What is this life we’re living
and who is the one decided to give it
and why in the hell do we ever fall in love
Oh God I’ve come undone
We built us a house and made just for the two of us
It towered the sky, we burned it to rubble and dust
Fire and stone never know
How to be anything more and,
In the end we all
Break and we burn,
Turn into ashes and rust
What is this life we’re living
and who is the one decided to give it
and why in the hell do we ever fall in love
Oh God I’ve come undone
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5. |
I Didn't Notice
04:43
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I’ve had my heart broke
More times than I know how to say
I made lots of friends
And I casually tossed them away
I lived in a world that was nothing
But dullness and gray
And I told myself
There was no harm in running away
I didn't notice
All of my actions were constantly scrutinized
I didn't notice
My heart tell my head it was living inside a lie
I didn't notice
There was this great big wide world that I couldn't see
I didn't notice
That beautiful woman was smiling at me
And I wore my heart on my sleeve
And the buttons fell off
It rolled on the floor
And got stepped on by everyone
And you picked it up
And we shared some familiar words
And I didn't know what I missed
But that night I learned
You built me a body
And a mind and heart of clay
Threw it in water
And watched as I scattered away
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6. |
Never Go Home
03:48
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Keep walking with a straight face
Slow down if you can’t take
All the places you’re gonna end up soon
Bone-thin you’re looking like hell
your parents dying so you’ll get well
Saying sorry really won’t help you
You gave a slight wave
As the walls closed around you
You’re hoping some day
They’ll see what they want to
It’s a shame you can’t do it on your own
It’s a shame you can never go home
Getting slow on the uptake
Cry your eyes out, things break
Scattered future laid out before you
Four walls are never ending
In the corner lies your envy
Cast aside everything you once know
You gave a slight wave
As the walls closed around you
You’re hoping some day
They’ll see what they want to
It’s a shame you can’t do it on your own
It’s a shame you can never go home
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7. |
Lady I.V.
02:56
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Oh Lady I.V.
Oh haven’t you heard
So much is said
In the space between words
Carve out all the footprints
Making shapes on the floor
Keep out all the strangers
They rattle your door
They came at me in a nightmare
Nobody wanted to leave me alone
Oh Lady I.V.
All the colors go black
Moreso than morphine
I’ll come if you ask
Swearin’ and swearin’
It’s becoming apparent
That sanity’s overrated
I say I ain’t going on back
I tried to escape through the window
They dragged me back in and they left me alone
I had me a thought and I shared it
They gave me a pill, I swallowed it whole
I know you get me
You blacken my eyes
So much and I see
The cables that bind me
Everyone’s swearin’ and swearin’
It’s becoming apparent
That sanity’s overrated
I say I ain’t going on back
They stifled my breath with a pillow
Everyone’s seeing but nobody knows
They burned all my words as I wrote them
Left me to watch as the ashes grow cold
Oh Lady I.V.
Oh haven't you heard
So much is said
In the space between words
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8. |
Chemical Lies
03:41
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I wake up broken and passionless
Ticking all the boxes of all of my past regrets
Tallying all of the things that I’ve done before
I rely on potions and prophecies
Auguring a future, I hope there’s one for me
I never asked for a thing, not a single thing more
But I’m so angry, I throw parties
Where everybody tells me
You’re wasting the very best years of your life
You look like you’re struggling hard to survive
Well I’m so lonely, but I can’t speak
To anybody
I can’t have a talk without something prescribed
I can’t fall in love without chemical lies
Pretty girls shower me with compliments
I just feel dirty, I cannot make any sense of it
I just awkwardly shuffle away
I get by on instinct and intellect
Navigate society using my compass of four dollar words
‘cause I’ve got nothing to say
But I’m so angry, I throw parties
Where everybody tells me
You’re wasting the very best years of your life
You look like you’re struggling hard to survive
Well I’m so lonely, but I can’t speak
To anybody
I can’t have a talk without something prescribed
I can’t fall in love without chemical lies
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9. |
Kiss Among the Dead
03:45
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I showed up early to the bar
And that’s OK
‘Cause it gave me a chance
To make some new friends, anyway
One was this old guy
Who said he studied to be a priest
But he messed it up, he said
And had five kids within a week
When you showed up
I was petting on a labrador
You looked better than your picture
I’d been looking at before
And the scarf that you wore around your neck
Oh, well I gotta say it made my heart a wreck
And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head
Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead
And we showed up
To my friend’s house, they were high
And they handed us some sparklers
As we walked into the night
And the light cast
Shadows on the pavement
You looked at me and smiled
And said I know where we should go next
We’ll make up stories all about their lives
The loves they had, the ones they left behind
And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head
Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead
And I’ll come see you
In New York City
You’ll take me to a restaurant
You found the other day
We’ll share a walk
A conversation on the Hudson
With Brooklyn in the air
I kinda want to stay
And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head
Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead?
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10. |
It Gets Harder
03:20
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I never like to go to parties
I get weird when I’m drunk
I’m always living inside my head
I never get much done
I’m weary of the world
I want another one
Not for any other reason
Than the chance of fun
You know I would always try to wake up
And keep together all
The things becoming undone
Before I lose it all
You used to try and keep me busy
playing stupid games
The kind we’dmplay when we were stuck inside
On stormy days
Cross-legged on a carpet
Make the room a haze
You know I’d make myself a stranger
Just to hold your gaze
I never thought we'd find a way to break up
The colored pieces fall
And break all of the boards up
We go and lose it all
We lose it all
But it gets harder
To love you
Every day
I never hold out hope
that anyone will save me
There was no one offering
To care for me
I never know
No I could hardly bear
To speak to you
If we should happen...
To meet again
We can talk about how all our friends
Took sides like Montagues and Capulets
The way they went up in arms
About the things we said
When we were twelve shots in, on the brink of death
You know I
had gone and made my mind up
Before i knew it
I had used all of my time up
I go and lose it all
We lose it all
But it gets harder
To love you
Every day
I never hold out hope
that anyone will save me
There was no one offering
To care for me
I never know
No I could hardly bear
To speak to you
If we should happen to meet
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11. |
Something More
04:00
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And I can’t get the taste of you
Out of my mouth
The night starts smoothly
And then it went south
Broken bottles
They ruin my shoes
Call me over
Nothing to lose
Walk through your doorway
It’s a new scene
I’ll be anyone
Except me
Well I need something more
Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older
When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose
Well I need something more
And I can’t get the taste of gin
Out of my mouth
A fire inside me
It hollows me out
Grab your bed frame
Breaking my nail
Spent the whole night
Under your spell
The curtain blocks the light out
But I see you
Try to mask it
But I know it’s a game too
Well I need something more
Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older
When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose
Well I need something more
My head swims with cigarettes
And I watch you dance with him
I know I don't have a chance
I try to hold it in
I fumble first impressions
I won’t get again
Well I need something more
Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older
When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose
Well I need something more
And I can’t get the taste of you
Out of my mouth
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Travis Atwell Carrboro, North Carolina
Travis Atwell is, foremost, a passionate believer in the power of storytelling and language. He has been writing songs for nearly a decade, capturing the highest and the lowest emotional and experiential images of youth and young adulthood.His music is designed to create an intimate, refined, and emotional experience that glides seamlessly between introspective melancholy and unbridled fun. ... more
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