Lines of Prematurity

by Travis Atwell

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Featuring a wide array of musical styles, punching harmonies, emotional revelations, and unique perspective, Lines of Prematurity is the first full-length album by Travis Atwell. Somewhere in the middle of tribute to and criticism of the turbulent ambiguity of young adulthood, each song reveals a piece of the fragmented palette of his emotions, hopes, dreams, desires, fears, regrets, joys, and understanding of his world. It is equally recommend for private brooding and house-parties.

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released May 24, 2016

Written, performed, recorded, and produced by Travis Atwell

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Travis Atwell Radford, Virginia

Travis Atwell is, foremost, a passionate believer in the power of storytelling and language. He has been writing songs for nearly a decade, capturing the highest and the lowest emotional and experiential images of youth and young adulthood.His music is designed to create an intimate, refined, and emotional experience that glides seamlessly between introspective melancholy and unbridled fun. ... more

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Track Name: Lines of Prematurity
There's an ocean in my body 
Flooding my heart 
The sound of the shatter 
Of pieces and parts

There's an ocean in my body 
That's flooding my heart 
The pages keep turning
But the stories all stopped

I can see in your eyes
I should see myself home


I'm dancing in circles 
On the edge of a knife 
In the arms of the devil
The time of my life

Your body in the darkness
Its ridges and lines 
The breath leaves my body
I lose track of time

I can see that you're trying to let me know
I can see in your eyes I should see myself home

There's unfamiliar people 
And the strangest of things 
You mash all my buttons 
And you pull all my strings 

Like a puppet at a sideshow 
I'm dancing around
The courage you gave me 
Has never been found 

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me
Writing lines of prematurity 

There’s an ocean in my body
An ocean in my body
Track Name: Speak Out
I'm happy with the life in living
I'm thankful for the things I'm given
But I just can't help feeling 
Underwhelmed 

The people they can't help saying 
That everything is overrated 
So I just keep on staying
By myself 

You want me out but I can't go
I'm scared of things that I don't know
Like all the lies of growing old 

Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door

Never understanding my thoughts 
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want 
Anymore

I bend until I'm breaking 
I'm tired of always thinking 
I don't have much remaining 
Anymore 

I'm quick to make decisions 
Impulsive with precision 
I find that solid vision 
Is a chore 

My friends they say they like me 
I SWEAR TO GOD IM TRYING 
To find just what I'm looking for 

Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door

Never understanding my thoughts 
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want 
Anymore

Can't keep my hands from shaking 
You had me for the taking 
But you insist on making  
It the worst 

I try hard to be charming 
Or at least a bit disarming 
I beg for you to call me 
Til it hurts. 

Every time I speak out
Everybody freaks out
And tripping on the way out
Of the door

Never understanding my thoughts 
You save me like a screenshot
There isn't anything that I want 

Anymore
Track Name: Stop Short
There’s a habit of my mind
to try and get the best of me
All the visions of my eyes
They never reveal anything

If you come for my heart
it mind end up being depressing
I come over in the night
To try and get you to get me

And all you see is somebody clever
Suddenly I become a stranger

I believe that I can be what you want
Ask me and I can make the time stop short

And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together

There’s a way my body and yours
The room spins and everything shudders
I find the less I explore
The more I discover

There’s a song in your breath and you sing
In a beautiful whisper
And it gets in my head and the words
They tell me to kiss her

And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together
All you see is somebody clever
Suddenly I become a stranger

Take all of my insecurities
Until we get to the point where
I believe that I can be what you want
Ask me and I can make the time stop short

And I know that I can be somebody better
Hold me, we’ll keep it together
Track Name: Fire&Stone
I blinked out the dust from my eyes as I rose from the earth 
Carved out of stone, defined by my heart and my worth
The moment I woke l found cast-offs and silhouettes formed from cutaway lines of you
Stumble and stretch towards the shadows of flickering blue

Stirring the embers of what it was like to begin
Covered in flames, the thought of you burning my skin
Powdered my bones, breathe it in, sleeplessly waiting for everything to be right again, 
Seeing your face in smoke that swallows me in

What is this life we’re living
and who is the one decided to give it
and why in the hell do we ever fall in love
Oh God I’ve come undone

We built us a house and made just for the two of us
It towered the sky, we burned it to rubble and dust 
Fire and stone never know 
How to be anything more and, 
In the end we all
Break and we burn, 
Turn into ashes and rust

What is this life we’re living
and who is the one decided to give it
and why in the hell do we ever fall in love
Oh God I’ve come undone
Track Name: I Didn't Notice
I’ve had my heart broke
More times than I know how to say
I made lots of friends
And I casually tossed them away
I lived in a world that was nothing
But dullness and gray

And I told myself
There was no harm in running away

I didn't notice
All of my actions were constantly scrutinized
I didn't notice
My heart tell my head it was living inside a lie
I didn't notice
There was this great big wide world that I couldn't see
I didn't notice
That beautiful woman was smiling at me

And I wore my heart on my sleeve
And the buttons fell off
It rolled on the floor
And got stepped on by everyone
And you picked it up
And we shared some familiar words
And I didn't know what I missed
But that night I learned


You built me a body
And a mind and heart of clay
Threw it in water
And watched as I scattered away
Track Name: Never Go Home
Keep walking with a straight face
Slow down if you can’t take
All the places you’re gonna end up soon

Bone-thin you’re looking like hell
your parents dying so you’ll get well
Saying sorry really won’t help you

You gave a slight wave
As the walls closed around you
You’re hoping some day
They’ll see what they want to

It’s a shame you can’t do it on your own
It’s a shame you can never go home

Getting slow on the uptake
Cry your eyes out, things break
Scattered future laid out before you

Four walls are never ending
In the corner lies your envy
Cast aside everything you once know

You gave a slight wave
As the walls closed around you
You’re hoping some day
They’ll see what they want to

It’s a shame you can’t do it on your own
It’s a shame you can never go home
Track Name: Lady I.V.
Oh Lady I.V.
Oh haven’t you heard
So much is said
In the space between words

Carve out all the footprints
Making shapes on the floor
Keep out all the strangers
They rattle your door

They came at me in a nightmare
Nobody wanted to leave me alone

Oh Lady I.V.
All the colors go black
Moreso than morphine
I’ll come if you ask

Swearin’ and swearin’
It’s becoming apparent
That sanity’s overrated
I say I ain’t going on back

I tried to escape through the window
They dragged me back in and they left me alone

I had me a thought and I shared it
They gave me a pill, I swallowed it whole

I know you get me
You blacken my eyes
So much and I see
The cables that bind me

Everyone’s swearin’ and swearin’
It’s becoming apparent
That sanity’s overrated
I say I ain’t going on back

They stifled my breath with a pillow
Everyone’s seeing but nobody knows

They burned all my words as I wrote them
Left me to watch as the ashes grow cold

Oh Lady I.V.
Oh haven't you heard
So much is said
In the space between words
Track Name: Chemical Lies
I wake up broken and passionless
Ticking all the boxes of all of my past regrets
Tallying all of the things that I’ve done before

I rely on potions and prophecies
Auguring a future, I hope there’s one for me
I never asked for a thing, not a single thing more

But I’m so angry, I throw parties
Where everybody tells me
You’re wasting the very best years of your life
You look like you’re struggling hard to survive

Well I’m so lonely, but I can’t speak
To anybody
I can’t have a talk without something prescribed
I can’t fall in love without chemical lies

Pretty girls shower me with compliments
I just feel dirty, I cannot make any sense of it
I just awkwardly shuffle away

I get by on instinct and intellect
Navigate society using my compass of four dollar words
‘cause I’ve got nothing to say

But I’m so angry, I throw parties
Where everybody tells me
You’re wasting the very best years of your life
You look like you’re struggling hard to survive

Well I’m so lonely, but I can’t speak
To anybody
I can’t have a talk without something prescribed
I can’t fall in love without chemical lies
Track Name: Kiss Among the Dead
I showed up early to the bar
And that’s OK
‘Cause it gave me a chance
To make some new friends, anyway

One was this old guy
Who said he studied to be a priest
But he messed it up, he said
And had five kids within a week

When you showed up
I was petting on a labrador
You looked better than your picture
I’d been looking at before

And the scarf that you wore around your neck
Oh, well I gotta say it made my heart a wreck

And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head

Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead

And we showed up
To my friend’s house, they were high
And they handed us some sparklers
As we walked into the night

And the light cast
Shadows on the pavement
You looked at me and smiled
And said I know where we should go next

We’ll make up stories all about their lives
The loves they had, the ones they left behind

And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head

Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead

And I’ll come see you
In New York City
You’ll take me to a restaurant
You found the other day

We’ll share a walk
A conversation on the Hudson
With Brooklyn in the air
I kinda want to stay

And oh I, sometimes
Have trouble getting words
Outside my head

Ain’t it funny how we kissed among the dead?
Track Name: It Gets Harder
I never like to go to parties
I get weird when I’m drunk
I’m always living inside my head
I never get much done 
I’m weary of the world
I want another one
Not for any other reason
Than the chance of fun

You know I would always try to wake up
And keep together all
The things becoming undone 
Before I lose it all 

You used to try and keep me busy
playing stupid games
The kind we’dmplay when we were stuck inside
On stormy days
Cross-legged on a carpet
Make the room a haze 
You know I’d make myself a stranger
Just to hold your gaze 

I never thought we'd find a way to break up
The colored pieces fall
And break all of the boards up 
We go and lose it all
We lose it all 

But it gets harder
To love you
Every day
I never hold out hope
that anyone will save me

There was no one offering
To care for me
I never know
No I could hardly bear
To speak to you

If we should happen...

To meet again
We can talk about how all our friends
Took sides like Montagues and Capulets 
The way they went up in arms
About the things we said 
When we were twelve shots in, on the brink  of death 
You know I
had gone and made my mind up 
Before i knew it
I had used all of my time up
I go and lose it all
We lose it all

But it gets harder
To love you
Every day
I never hold out hope
that anyone will save me

There was no one offering
To care for me
I never know
No I could hardly bear
To speak to you

If we should happen to meet
Track Name: Something More
And I can’t get the taste of you
Out of my mouth
The night starts smoothly
And then it went south

Broken bottles
They ruin my shoes
Call me over
Nothing to lose

Walk through your doorway
It’s a new scene
I’ll be anyone
Except me

Well I need something more

Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older

When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose

Well I need something more

And I can’t get the taste of gin
Out of my mouth
A fire inside me
It hollows me out

Grab your bed frame
Breaking my nail
Spent the whole night
Under your spell

The curtain blocks the light out
But I see you
Try to mask it
But I know it’s a game too

Well I need something more

Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older

When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose

Well I need something more

My head swims with cigarettes
And I watch you dance with him
I know I don't have a chance
I try to hold it in

I fumble first impressions
I won’t get again

Well I need something more

Something more
To get this chip off of my shoulder
Something more
To make me feel like I got older

When my heart get knocked out
In the first round
When my hopes have their wings clipped
and they fall down
When I fight battles
That I know I’m gonna lose

Well I need something more

And I can’t get the taste of you
Out of my mouth